Friday, July 10, 2009
haven blog for quite sumtime.. dun really noe what to say..seem to always feel this sharp pain in me nowadays..
its killing me..
maybe its cos the sense of guilt is growing in me again..
haiz..
if this goes on, i'll die of guilt and be drowned by my own tears..
y wun the pain go away?????????..
had recording tue.. it was fun.. :) i love recording... haha... finally sumthing i like.. not that i dun like the other things we're doing but not as much as this.. even though was not happy all the way.. but well, life's like this.. at least i have frens with me when my mood was bad.. TKS SHEENA! :)
as for my results, they're all crap.. idk what to do with them.. but i deserve it la.. who ask me to emo during exam period..
haiz.. but i really cant control certain things.. like my emotions.. freaking unpredictable... actually not really.. i'm known for my mood swings in sec sch.. so nothing for me to be surprise of.. just hope i dun scare my poly classmates like how i scared i my sec sch classmates..
it seems tat its getting harder and harder to control my mood swings again.. i feel sad almost all the time.. hard to explain why also.. its not for no reason.. its just that the reasons are hard to explain..
perhaps its cos i'm afraid.. afraid of wat others might say after i say them out.. afraid of what might happen after that.. i'm too afraid of changes.. cos all i can think of are negative changes.. for sum things, i'm pretty sure it will turn out the way i expect it to.. but for the others, well lets just say i dun wan to risk.. its not worth it..
many stuff has happen recently that has left me speechless.. well, i really dunno what to say bout them.. its just to to to ...
maybeu'reoneofthereasonsyi'mlikethis..
maybeishouldstopreadingu..
cosmyhearthurtslikemadeverytimeafteritrytoreadu..
seemslikecertainsthingscntbeexplainwithwords..
i guess all i can do now it to keep tellin myself u're not worth it..
and hope that 1 day i will get over it.. or maybe hate will be a better choice?
i really dk :'( :'( :'(
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