Saturday, October 29, 2005
sad sia today.... guess wat i found out ytd... haiz... only 3 ppl went for choir... kinda feel guilty lor... haiz... actually its not just kinda... i feel terrible... i feel like its my fault like that... haiz... but i was really sick mah... haiz... how... aiya guess i should have expected this ba... but i just didn't tot that it would be this terrible... haiz... i also don't know wat to do... i feel terrible... haiz...hmmm... today is the last day of school le... but don't know why i just feel so moody... no mood to be happy also... haiz... nvm... forget it... this is me... it won't change... haiz...
Wh3n WiLl yOu St0p Br3aKiNg My h3aRt?
3:50 AM
Friday, October 28, 2005
hmmm.. so long nv update le... also not sure wat to type... anyway lets just pick some out ba... hmmm... today sick so nv go school again... hehe.... spent almost the whole day in bed... and also nv go for choir... kinda feel guilty for not goin actually... also don't know why... hehe... guess it coz there r very few ppl there only ba... haiz... also don't know wat to do... hmm... finished doing the camp details for the choir ytd... haiz... spent the whole afternoon doin it... got a headache after that... hehe... then fever... haiz... thats how it came... hehe...but i'm not sayin this is the cause of it lah... but i'm actually not satisfied with wat i've done... don't like it... still not the kind of thing i want... not happy with it at all... haiz... still thinkin how to change it... but lack of ideas... need to get some from other ppl... haiz... but still not sure who to get it from... haiz... so if anyone who saw this entry and think u can help me.... pls let me know ba... anyway... i'm the one who say i want to do this... so ok lah... but maybe i expect too much out of me le... thats y... still not satisfied with it... hehe... guess i think too much le... haiz... better not think of it lah... i don't even know wat i'm typin le...a then... ytd got back report book... erm... quite happy lah... but i'm not satisfied with the marks... all also very low... sad ar... haiz...
Wh3n WiLl yOu St0p Br3aKiNg My h3aRt?
12:30 PM
Thursday, October 20, 2005
haiz... today went to NYP..... I tot we will be sittin there and just listen to them talk and talk only... but not... had to run all over a block to do a worksheet... haiz... tirin lei.... but also quite fun lah... at least better than just sit there and turn to "stones".... haha.... then after that.... went back to school to make banner for the sec 4s & 5s.... aiyo... they did't have a bus to bring us back... sian had to go back ourself... haiz... then when reach school le... haiz... my class the ppl all also haven't come back.... only me there.... had to wait for them to co0me back.... so sian.... then when all of them came le... went to make banner till 3 something... haiz... i should be home sleepin de lei... don't know y... today really very sian... just now took a nap le... but now still feel like sleepin... haiz... sian....Wh3n WiLl yOu St0p Br3aKiNg My h3aRt?
12:25 PM
Wednesday, October 19, 2005
haiz... today take back all the paper lei... haiz... all y result like shit like that.... all the marks all so low... arrrr... how... i die le lah... scare i retain lei... haiz... my hightest marks only sixty something lei... and the physics marks really very low lor..... fail that subject till like this.... die le lah... how how how... i need help... i can't take it le... haiz... worried lei.... and many other things also come happenin at the same time lei... everythin also happen at the same time... how am i suppose to take it... haiz...anyway, choir is finally startin le... but i wonder how will it go....
anyway no mood to type le... update another day...
Wh3n WiLl yOu St0p Br3aKiNg My h3aRt?
12:04 PM
Saturday, October 15, 2005
finally the examz r over... but i'm totally not happy at all... haiz... firstly i'm scare that i will retain... haiz... as i know the chances of that happenin r high... haiz... and the things that r happenin recently r really makin me crazy already... haiz... and its all becoz of one person... i really don't know wat to do already... i don't know if i should let that person know or not... or should i just keep it to myself forever... though alot of my frensay that person deserves to know... haiz... but no matter wat i just don't think that i am in fault lei... haiz... i think i better not that person lah... if not something happen i will be blamed again... haiz... well... i think i would see how things goes first then say lah... well actually somethin good happen to me over the last few days which should be a happy thing lah... but it just came to unexpected le... it only makes me think that is this person tryin to disturb me alnot... i just can't take anymore of this anymore... haiz... and i found that recently all my frenz have start to like don't care bout me... ppl who that would nomally talk to me would be like not talk to ma and the ones who seldom talk to me would talk to me more... except for one of my godsis li jun... she's the only one... who has nv turn on me... the rest has just went off to don't know where le... haiz... sad... nvm... forget it... its just startin to make me realise that i've been holdin on to too much frenships which i know that would't last... i think its time i let this frenships go... and not hang on to them anymore... coz the more i try, the more sad i will feel when nothin comes back in return... haiz...Wh3n WiLl yOu St0p Br3aKiNg My h3aRt?
12:40 PM
Monday, October 10, 2005
hmm.. k let me let me go thru wat i did in the weekends first... a... on saturday i went to li wen godmum hse to stay... and all i can say is that i enjoyed myself... hehe... i only went to sleep at 2 something... but liwen slept later than me... hehe... (sorry...) hmmm... i think i said i was goin there to study but in the end, only li wen was studyin, i ended up playin the com... hehe... (ops... another sorry...) then on sunday i went to liwen hse first... then at bout 8pm then go home... k... guess thats all i can say bout the weekend... and one more thing i promise liwen that i will write ur name in my entry for alot alot of times... so here is it...LIWEN^1000
haha... k... liwen this is specially for u k... hehe.... k then bout today... haiz... my maths i think i'm goin to die... i don't know how to do lei... haiz... and i have 22 marks gone plus careless mistakes... haiz... fail le lah... die lah... really scare retain lei... haiz... waste my time... wake up at 4am to study... haiz... all my efforts have gone down the drain...arrr... sad sia... haiz... stupid... no mood to write le lah... update next time....
Wh3n WiLl yOu St0p Br3aKiNg My h3aRt?
9:01 PM
Saturday, October 08, 2005
its been a long time since i actually write something bout me here... its coz... i really don't know wat to write... haiz... guess i've wrote too much already... and maybe i should't have started this blog... should have just went along with the one in friendster... i actually have been spendin alot of time here... for reasons that i don't even know... haiz... just went to read someones blog... haiz... after radin it i just keep thinkin... is that prson talkin bout me... if its me then i have hurt someone without knowin again... haiz... wat in the world is wrong with me... haiz... i just few so fan... i feel like i don't belong here... haiz... :.(but on the bright side... i pass my english for sa2... hehe....
Wh3n WiLl yOu St0p Br3aKiNg My h3aRt?
12:28 PM
Tuesday, October 04, 2005
hmm... today exam for MT paper 1&2.... haiz... really startin to get worried le.... for paper 1 i also don't know wat i'm writin... for paper 2 i don't really understand the compre also... haiz... die lah... after exam went to hougang to pray(huan shen) with my grandparents then went to eat.... then go home... haiz... at home really very sian... lucky someone go to work today ar... if not i die le... if that person stay at home everyday i surly will go crazy one... haiz... better not talk bout it le... haiz...Wh3n WiLl yOu St0p Br3aKiNg My h3aRt?
8:53 PM
hmmm... today is MT paper 1&2.... haiz... so sad.... very scare i will fail.... haiz... paper 1 i wrote alot of rubbish... paper 2 the compre i don't really understand it also haiz.... sian.... after exam went to hougang to pray(huan shen) with my grandparents then went out to eat... then go home... haiz... really very sian lei... nothin to do at home except sleep and study... haiz... tmr first period only is physics... haiz... worst ar... if i'm not wrong i think after school also got physics remedial... haiz... so many physics lesson a day surly will kill me de... haiz....
Wh3n WiLl yOu St0p Br3aKiNg My h3aRt?
8:46 PM
