Friday, September 30, 2005
today english paper 1&2... haiz.... it sux... i totally don't know wat i was doin... and i actually suddenly 'stone' for 20 mins in the middle of paper one.... haiz.... guess i'm goin to retain le.... how.... and paper 2 worst... i really don't understand wat the shit the passage is writin lor... haiz... die le lah like this.... haiz.... hmmm... my grandmum is finally commin back today after her long trip tp somewhere in china.... i really miss her.... i can't wait to see her tmr mornin... hehe....Wh3n WiLl yOu St0p Br3aKiNg My h3aRt?
9:40 PM
Thursday, September 29, 2005
last few days fren birthday... i really so envy her lor... i rmb my birthday this year... the birthday wishes i had from my frenz r even lesser than my age... hehe.. i really don't know wat is wrong... haiz... this year is the worst brithday i ever had since i was born... haiz...anyway tmr is english paper 1 and 2... i hope i'll at least pass... coz my english is gettin from bad to worst haiz....
AND LASTLY I WOULD LIKE TO WISH ALL MY FRENZ GD LUCK FOR THEIR EXAMZ....
Wh3n WiLl yOu St0p Br3aKiNg My h3aRt?
9:47 PM
Wednesday, September 28, 2005
hmmm... today in school very sian... so tired... don't know why also... first period is physics... haiz... worst... make me want to sleep.... then chinese... then recess... then d&t aiyo. the teacher don't want to let us sit all must stand and do the workpiece even if finish le.... hehe... then is chemistry.... i'm so happy got full marks for the test ytd.... first time lei.... hehe... i really very very happy.... and then that day maths test also full marks... so unexpected lei... hehe.... now i also don't know why... just suddenly feel very sad and scare.... :( haiz.... don't know wat to do how.... really very worry lei... hope everything goes well... haiz....Wh3n WiLl yOu St0p Br3aKiNg My h3aRt?
8:52 PM
Tuesday, September 27, 2005
hmmm.... today during english period the time.... arrrr.... haiz... teacher say bout me again... aiyo why bring up the stupid rumors again.... aiyo... its really not true lor... please lah... stop repeatin and repeatin it lei.... he's really not my past lor.... haiz.... ireally say until want to vomit blood already.... haiz....had maths test on don't know when lah.... i was surprise when i got back the paper... full marks.... first time in my life lei.... hehe.... then today got chem test.... arrr.... jst realise i made a few mistakes.... aiyo... why why why.... haiz....
erm.... examz commin le... i'm startin to get worried..... don't know why also... haiz... sian... is not i don't want to study... but i really can't get anythin in my head even thou i study....
Wh3n WiLl yOu St0p Br3aKiNg My h3aRt?
8:12 PM
Friday, September 16, 2005
today got choir... but its the last till the examz r over... haiz... goin to miss it... today practice did not really turn out as the way i wanted but it turn out as i expected.... haiz... really was not wat i want... but don't know why... the attendance is good today... wat a surprise... well not really also... i expected this also.... was coughin like hell just now... also don't know why... haiz... really feel that my sick is gettin from bad to worst... the doctor med. is useless to me... haiz... waste money on it for nothin... i know i then don't want to go and see doctor ar... and now i got flu also... hopes this ends soon if not i will die liao... really feel terrible lei... haiz.. and today lookin at the choir the fear that it will close down have come again... haiz... if everytime choir also like this i really also will be in a terrible mood swing the next day le... well as expected tmr i will be havin mood swing again... haiz... surly one also don't know why... and i did't really talk much in the choir today also... don't know why... i have things that i want to say.. but my heart just tells me not to do it... haiz... i also don't know wat to do le lah....Wh3n WiLl yOu St0p Br3aKiNg My h3aRt?
12:15 PM
Thursday, September 15, 2005
today really havin very bad mood... i also don't know why... i just don't feel like talkin to anyone at all... haiz... sian... stupid... found out that someone backstab me today... that person let out all my secrets that i tell her.... wat the hell... to think that i even trust that person so much... i must have been the most stupid person in the world.... haiz... guess there isn't anyone that i can trust le... everytime i trust someone... i end up being betray by that person... haiz... just now went to read salome blog... then rmb that tmr got ss test... lucky i go and read her blog... if not tmr i die liao... haiz... guess i got to stay up late to stdy for the test liao... there goes the restin time that i wanted... but still not so bad lah... coz i got to sleep in the afternoon today... hmm... tmr got choir le... well its the last practice before exam le... guess there won't be choir for a long time le... haiz...(goin to miss that...) i wonder wats goin to happen tmr in choir... really worried i will sing wrongly again... haiz...Wh3n WiLl yOu St0p Br3aKiNg My h3aRt?
12:05 PM
Tuesday, September 13, 2005
really sad today... in class... don't need to talk bout that coz all expected one.... really tryin very very hard to pretend nothin is happenin already... but i really can't.... i tried already... not nv even think at all lor.... haiz... then just now go and read someone blog.... after readin it... just feel sad and guilty...the moment i finish readin it... a tear fall out of my eye.... haiz... also don't know y... bt tell ppl also they won't believe one lah... so i rather just keep it to myself... hmm... examz r comin.... gotta start to study le... if not will die in the hands of sec 3 le.... haiz.... and i cry today... really cry out alot...the only thing that is not so bad today that i know today is maybe i will get a new phone in oct....
Wh3n WiLl yOu St0p Br3aKiNg My h3aRt?
9:06 PM
hmm... today very unlucky lei... firstly forget to bring PE attire... then must do all the stupid exercise coz of this....
haiz... then today got choir finally... (i don't know bout others but i just feel weird coz i did not have choir for a long time already...) but got very little ppl come... haiz... and some say want to come in the end also nv come... the choir is going to die in or hands... and if i say i don't know wat to do, others will just say is not u don't know is u want or not.... haiz... i really don't want the choir to die becoz of us lor.... haiz... but i don't know wat the others think of....
after choir went to a popular to look for a book haiz... qi si wo le... find for bout 30 mins still cannot find... sad... have been tryin to look for that book for a long time already... i wonder izzit they don't have it here...
erm... today first day of school after the sept 1 week holiday.... haiz... sian ar... mornin wake up also don't feel like wakin up... guess i got use to the sleepin time durin the holidays... then i cannot find my chinese textbook also don't know why haiz... i think i need to sleep early today already if not tmr i surly will sleep in school... oh ya.. and my hair... it totally sux lor... that stupid person who cut my hair.... make me so miserable in school... i hate her... idiot....
and i don't know why somehow i still feel sad inside... haiz....
Wh3n WiLl yOu St0p Br3aKiNg My h3aRt?
12:19 PM
Thursday, September 08, 2005
don't know why... i suddenly got alot to think today... and i found that i've really turn myself to a disaster... i really don't know why... and when i listen to a song call piano.... i actually cry... i guess i finally realise there's no way this would make me happy.... and of cos my friends...no one would ever rmb me.... i nv really tot bout this till today and its becoz of wat happen ytd... well i'm not blamin u bout its just me lah... and i really nv really find a true fren since i came to sec school.... i really don't know why.... no matter wat i do just no one will ever understand.... well i guess it won't be ez for me to ever find one le... and if i hav to die now... i think my greastest regrets will be that i nv found a true fren, someone that would appreciate me... and i'm really sorry to all ppl who were once my fren.... hope u all will forgive me for the mistakes i made...and i think this skin that i use nv really reflect(the black one) on me... i have to get it change....
Wh3n WiLl yOu St0p Br3aKiNg My h3aRt?
9:01 PM
went to watch KE performance ytd with ws and p... it was great... the first song is sang by a all guys choir... the song they sang is "one voice" and it really brings back memories coz its the first song that i learn when i first entered this choir... (althought i don't think i can rmb all the part clearly now...) then when it was KE time to sing, the moment they start singing i really felt like it was comin out from the radio... its so perfect... and i especially like the song call "only u"... then one song when ws say that why is there no train of frenz in it...hehe... and not forgettin wat happen after that... hehe...(lets not talk bout it...) hmm... before it i was at j8... eat there le then go to NUS... after the performance we went to have supper...(erm... actually i nv really eat also... hehe...) hmmm... then we took a long bus ride to somewhere which i can't rmb now.... talk alot on the bus.... i somemore ask alot of stupid qns...(in fact i've been doin it for the whole day till ws can't stand it le... hehe... welll hope u don't mind...) then when reach mrt station... of coz take mrt home lah... on mrt say want to go watch movie on friday, but i think won't be goin de lah... coz... nothin is decided yet.... really enjoy myself today... except for somethings which ws said that r still runnin in my head that made me abit sad... haiz....
Wh3n WiLl yOu St0p Br3aKiNg My h3aRt?
8:41 PM
Tuesday, September 06, 2005
hmmm... quite sian recently.... nothin to do coz of the holidays.... and that reminds me... i still have homework to do... watch a show recently... its call touched by an angel... its really great the best show i've watch so far... its not a movie... it has many different episode... and very episode really touched me... hehe... its bout 4 angles who who has come to earth and goes givin ppl good advise... and helpin famlies realise the importance in each other... but still every episode has a different story to tell.... and every single episode really touched me in different ways... sometimes i even cry... hehe... silly me rite... but i'm like this lah... can't do anything.... hmmm... i think i'm goin out tmr.... but still haven't confirm anything at all... haiz... everytime also do last min things... but well nvm lah... its part of my life le... hehe...Wh3n WiLl yOu St0p Br3aKiNg My h3aRt?
8:53 PM
Sunday, September 04, 2005
i can't believe... i have ruin my life in my own hands.... i'm mad... already... help.... haiz... wat in the world is happenin to me.... haiz.... :.( these few days have been a really sian day for me... feel like the whole world has left me... except for some of them... haiz....Wh3n WiLl yOu St0p Br3aKiNg My h3aRt?
4:21 PM
Friday, September 02, 2005
i'm still tryin to figure wats happen around me recently... and ya... still no ans... haiz... wats the meanin of all this... if my life is not goin to change... i think for the bright side... i will have to change if not i will feel terrible for the rest of my life... hmmm... heard some rumours of me recently again... and i'm not surprise... coz this always happens and i don't even know why... but hope that person won't get angry... haiz... but to me i don't really care bout rumours anymore.... it has been part of my life since i entered sec. sch.... so much for my name in school.... i can heard all the craziest things they say... haiz... and just got my results... i fail my geog badly... haiz... expected lah... but mrs low say thats not my real CA marks for this term so nvm lah... anyway... i don't think i have pass my geog since sec1... hehe... hmmm. i can't believe that my chem is actually not bad... i rmb faillin my PH badly but when i got my result slip... i actually pass my combined science....haiz... but still i hope my PH will improve so at least this subject can help me in sec 4&5... and finally my chinese improve.... its the first time this year it got back to my target... so happy... but sad to say... my english, maths, d&t results all drop... haiz... really have to be prepare... i really scare will retain... hmm... and lastly thanks to yuzhen who gave me wonderful advise.... thanks....Wh3n WiLl yOu St0p Br3aKiNg My h3aRt?
8:33 PM
