Wednesday, July 22, 2009
lazy to blog.. but will paste sumthing i read from Jason mraz's blog...this is the post whereby he ans qns ask from his fans.. and i particular like this ans... so below is wat that person asked and how he replied.
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From lindsaygee: I am 28. hard age. what worries you the most about your own life; not the world; not the environment. what keeps you up @ night.
I often ask myself: Am I doing enough? What contributions have I made today? If my list is short I will get out of bed and start typing something - often a letter or a journal entry, as if my own journal will someday amount to something (which it usually does, allowing me sort out the garbage from the recycling in my head.) Otherwise, I waste little energy on worry. What’s there to be anxious about? Missing a flight or not making a phone payment can be an inconvenience, just as someone you know getting sick or even dying can be very unfortunate. But Worry is what happens when you take those misfortunes on and think you have control over them. You tell yourself that you are responsible in some way for these situations. Or worse, you’ve decided if the outcome isn’t pleasant, there could be even more trouble for yourself and others.
Worry is a story you tell yourself and nothing more. Sometimes we do it to over-express our care in a matter. Other times we’re looking for sympathy. We’ll even go so far as to tell all about our worries in hopes that someone else will share the responsibility with us. There are plenty of reasons we create for Worry to creep its little head in.
But the real fact is, you are responsible for nothing to begin with.
Let’s say you send some love to someone, but they don’t reciprocate the way you expected. That’s nothing to worry about. It doesn’t mean they don’t love you. Besides, if they don’t, why worry about that? If that mattered, you’d be creating that as a condition for having love in your life. Unconditional love is what we practiced when we came into this world in the first place – so it’s best we get back to being that.
Our economy-based society doesn’t make it easy for us to live worry-free lives. Somewhere between the ages of 6 and 16 we pick up all kinds of story and baggage that sit with us our whole lives. Is my job a cool job? Are my clothes cool or appropriate for this place? Do I read the right books? Do I hang with the right crowd? Whatever the answer, it’s just one interpretation of how you THINK life should be. There’s nothing in this Universe that can support the way something SHOULD be other than the honesty and your joyous reaction to it being whole.
Life itself is empty and meaningless. Truly. It’s you who give meaning to something. The world you see before you is entirely defined by your interpretation of it. Otherwise, life just is.
Some people don’t care for sports. They see the game as meaningless. Others see it as the most important activity on the planet. Some people really love fancy cars while others can go their whole lives not caring what kind of box they’re transported around in. You see what I’m saying? Go easy on yourself. Love yourself at 28. Tell the world that it is a peaceful and playful age, not a hard one, and watch it transform around you.
You’ve asked a very serious question and hopefully this brief answer shines some light on the power you have to create endless, beautiful possibility for yourself. Nothing is wrong in your world unless you tell yourself it is wrong. There are no wrong questions. There are no wrong answers.
There is only Love. Everything else is our resistance to it. -Terces Englehart
Namaste
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well.. thats it.. to read other stuff he wrote or qns he ans go to
http://freshnessfactorfivethousand.blogspot.com/
all credits go to the blog mentioned above..
and i didnt highlight certain parts to decorate my post.. i just found them meaningful and hope ppl who are reading them now will pay more attention to them.
will blog bout myself soon..
my current aim -----------> to be happy :)
cheers :)
Wh3n WiLl yOu St0p Br3aKiNg My h3aRt?
9:36 AM
Saturday, July 11, 2009
had another crying evening.. haiz.. i wonder when will this ever end..just went thru my mails.. and i saw a mail that is about how thankful a person is for everything.. and i smiled.. cos i have many things that i can be thankful for too.. :)
For the very start, i'm thankful that i can cry, cos that means i'm not heartless..
as for the rest.. perhaps i'll write them when i happen to blog bout them :)
and today i found a nice quote,
"Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take but by the moments that take our breath away" (author unknown)
well i guess i'll end here today.. cant think of anymore happy stuff to blog about..
Wh3n WiLl yOu St0p Br3aKiNg My h3aRt?
11:29 PM
Friday, July 10, 2009
haven blog for quite sumtime.. dun really noe what to say..seem to always feel this sharp pain in me nowadays..
its killing me..
maybe its cos the sense of guilt is growing in me again..
haiz..
if this goes on, i'll die of guilt and be drowned by my own tears..
y wun the pain go away?????????..
had recording tue.. it was fun.. :) i love recording... haha... finally sumthing i like.. not that i dun like the other things we're doing but not as much as this.. even though was not happy all the way.. but well, life's like this.. at least i have frens with me when my mood was bad.. TKS SHEENA! :)
as for my results, they're all crap.. idk what to do with them.. but i deserve it la.. who ask me to emo during exam period..
haiz.. but i really cant control certain things.. like my emotions.. freaking unpredictable... actually not really.. i'm known for my mood swings in sec sch.. so nothing for me to be surprise of.. just hope i dun scare my poly classmates like how i scared i my sec sch classmates..
it seems tat its getting harder and harder to control my mood swings again.. i feel sad almost all the time.. hard to explain why also.. its not for no reason.. its just that the reasons are hard to explain..
perhaps its cos i'm afraid.. afraid of wat others might say after i say them out.. afraid of what might happen after that.. i'm too afraid of changes.. cos all i can think of are negative changes.. for sum things, i'm pretty sure it will turn out the way i expect it to.. but for the others, well lets just say i dun wan to risk.. its not worth it..
many stuff has happen recently that has left me speechless.. well, i really dunno what to say bout them.. its just to to to ...
maybeu'reoneofthereasonsyi'mlikethis..
maybeishouldstopreadingu..
cosmyhearthurtslikemadeverytimeafteritrytoreadu..
seemslikecertainsthingscntbeexplainwithwords..
i guess all i can do now it to keep tellin myself u're not worth it..
and hope that 1 day i will get over it.. or maybe hate will be a better choice?
i really dk :'( :'( :'(
Wh3n WiLl yOu St0p Br3aKiNg My h3aRt?
10:19 PM
Wednesday, July 01, 2009
Thats it...It has broken...
I've tired fixing it... Many times...
And now i've decide to give up...
Cos even after fixing it...
There are scars on it...
I've tried to cover the scars...
Trying very hard to let it fade...
But even before the old one fades a new one apppears...
And the cut gets deeper each time...
Now certain scars have become permanent, its too deep to ever fade off...
But still tks...
Tks for being like a best frens once...
I truely did treasured that frenship...
I will always rmb that you and that you will always be one my best fren...
Even if that you will never be you anymore...
Cos u once gave me a frenship that was truely priceless and worth rmbing...
(but i really wan to noe if you did see me as a fren too) or perhaps u're the same as __... made frens with me for the sake of making frens :(
i guess thats all i wan to say here..
hmmm.. was wondering if i should post this on LJ or here.. maybe i'll post on both.. but with more details on LJ if i do post this there.. haha.. cos i did remove sum lines here.. lol.. sumhow, kind of have a sense of relief and kind of peacefulness.. haha.. (i must be mad.. can still feel so calm after looking at my EM3a results.. lol.. but i kind of expected it.. its already a big enough miracle that i pass.. i expected to fail..) hope this feeling will stay in me for a long time..
but i dun think it will.. cos sumhow depress is still in me.. but i'm trying very very hard to ignore it..
sumhow i feel that sumthing is wrong.. but i seriously dunno wat is it.. i just hope i'm wrong..
was talking bout risk taking just now.. and i told my fren i do it to ecperience the thrill of it.. lol.. sumhow it reminds me that last time i talk to sum1 on msn i ask the person y scare urself izzit enjoy scaring him/her self... then that person say ya.. next time he/she scare him/her self, that person will say its dam shuang.. =_= lol.. funny.. haha.. my first smile for today which came from a nice memory... but i cant rmb clearly who this person is.. so idk to put he or she.. lol.. sorry.. To this person: if u ever see this and rmb is u.. pls tell me.. lol.. sry.. and tks for this memory.. haha
Wh3n WiLl yOu St0p Br3aKiNg My h3aRt?
12:20 AM
