Thursday, May 14, 2009
i'm going mad nowadays.. and i'll say u have to take sum of the blame.. lol.. idk.. my head doesnt seem to wan to listen to me.. its giving me tots that are either making me sad or angry.. =(
couldnt sleep last nite.. dunno y.. keep thinking of wat i blog about ytd.. trying to find a way to avoid it or run away from it.. its really torturing to keep thinking about it.. but i cant make myself dun think bout it.. it just keeps popping out in my head.. and the worst part is there are things that reminds me of it.. i'm exsausted.. give me a brk pls.. stop reminding me of it.. maybe i should learn to hate you.. but i really dont know how to do it.. but if i dun do this.. i think i'll end up hating the wrong person in the end.. maybe its my fault.. that now things are like this.. i'm doing sumthing wrong.. but i've decided to continue that mistake i made... cant imagine wat will happen if i did it the other way from the start... ~*starts imagining*~ wah.. cnt.. better stay this way.. even though i noe i wun feel happy with it.. wat the crap.. dun wan to expect too much.. wat if it gets worst.. i dun wan to taste more dissappointment.. i'm going to write a note to my problem...
"Dear problem,
pls for goodness sake, stay away from me.. i'm already trying to avoid u.. dun come to me pls... dun make things happen that will remind me of you.. i'll go mad soon.. pls dun make me snap..."
lol.. i think i'm really going mad...
i've found a temp way to help myself that is to blast music so loud that i cant hear my own tots.. haiz..
finally my guitar is tuned.. lol.. can play liao.. now i need sumone to teach me.. lol...
realise that i'm getting more and more interested in sumthing.. its like i keep wanting to know more bout it.. dunno y.. this is definitely not a bad thing...
well i guess thats all for now..
Wh3n WiLl yOu St0p Br3aKiNg My h3aRt?
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