Wednesday, May 13, 2009
feel dam wrong nowadays.. i hate the feeling of jealousy.. dam irritating and it will become hated soon if no one save me from all this... crap.. i feel dam crappy nowadays.. is there anyway to get out of this.. if there is, can sumone tell me.. =(I don't like to feel that pain... That pain whereby u look at someone and know that he/she'll nv be yours no matter how much u love him/her... That feeling whereby your heart feels like its crying but the tears wun come out... That feeling when u look at that person and feel anger and sadness at the same time... The heart feels like its sinking cos u keep feeling the punches of pain that cannot be explained... Cos another person will never know how u feel unless he/she is in your position...
i think i'm going to go crazy soon... hahaha...
on mon, had french test... omg.. i dunno wat the hell am i doing at all.. i hope i pass.. after test the teacher let us watch a movie.. but we didnt manage to finish it.. he say continue next week... nice movie.. cant wait to see the 2nd half of it.. then went to meet my mum and she pass me my guitar.. i didnt noe it was this small.. lol.. maybe cos i didnt really touch it since i got it or thats its a toy.. lol.. but the sound is really =.= now.. maybe it need tuning?.. and i have no idea how to tune it... would any1 be so kind to tune it for me?? =) would be better if u r willing to teach also.. lol...
then on tues, celebrate maria bd.. =) hope that she'll be happy always.. =)
then today, was playing game almost thru out the whole of first lesson... then idk wat i doing during the 2nd lesson also.. then brk.. then pcn... this is the most boring module i have sia.. =.= should take a photo of the class next time when we having lesson.. haha.. almost no one listening.. best part today was when the teacher ask er zi wat no. he wrote on the board when the screen is blocking.. lol... funny... was watching movie thruout the lecture.. stress sia.. he keep looking at my direction when he's teaching... =.= only can look up but didnt noe wat was he talking about cos was listening to the movie.. lol.. if he ask me qns i sure jialak one.. but even if i did pay attention.. i think i also wun be able to ans his qns.. i haven finish the movie then jiu time to do prac liao... crap..
maybe its me but i feel more things that make me sad nowadays.. i hope i'm wrong.. :'( y cant i feel more happiness instead.. =( dunno if u'll ever see this but u're one of the reason y i feel this way.. haiz...
i feel like i have alot of things to say.. but i cant seem to find the words to say them.. and idk who is the correct person to tell them to.. even though i have a few ppl in mind, idk if they wan to listen to me rant.. got a feeling i might :'( when i pour everything out on sumone... hope i wun...
lastly, to ___: sorry...
well i guess thats all for now..
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11:34 PM
