Friday, November 07, 2008
i dunno wat went wrong with me today... I SNAPPED!!! and it went on for bout 1 hr.. was dam tired after that... sumthing have been wrong since ytd liao.. i was dam lost the whole day.. i dunno where my mind is at all.. its just wondering everywhere... i spend my whole day making sure i had stuff to do so i wun think of the things that was makin me go crazy... then today.. was totally siao in the morning liao.. but i didnt wan to snap so fast... was just hoping i could control until it passes.. but it seems like i cant.. i snap the moment i reach sch... so i went to class put down my bag and went to the toilet.. and in the end i didnt attend the first leson at all... lol... the moment i went in to the toilet, the tears started coming out already... didnt wan to be alone.. so i called serene with my phone and she came to the toilet to accompany me.. [tks serene.. =)] and in the end she nv attend the first lesson also.. [sry..] and she came super fast... its like i just put down the phone only and she come in.. shes a really nice person.. i cried harder when she came.. but it seems like the harder i cry.. the deeper the pain gets.. i dunno y.. then after a while wenny came.. and she stayed there a while with me to console me then she went to class put her bag and came back to the toilet again... she too nv attend the first lesson bcoz of me.. [i feel so bad.. that both of them didnt attend the lesson bcoz of me... so sry..] then after a while hannah and larissa came in.. and the both of them also stayed in the toilet until the lesson end then went back.. they say they would only go back if i went back to the class too.. but i dun think i need the rest of the class to see me in such a state ba.. lol.. then sheena came in.. and we stayed there until the lesson end... then we went back to take our bags when yeeteng told us that the teacher have left the class... then we went to canteen... then ael lecture... then those who are in the 2nd shift for the lab test went to our space to slack until when it was time for our eeps lab test.. i didnt noe wat i was doin during the test also.. was lost.. lol... so i've no idea if wat i was doin was rite anot.. lol.. then went to lvl 5 of blk 23 for a while then went to c1 then went hm...i'm lucky that i have such nice friends... =) they are my source of comfort that my life isnt that bad..
it seems like i'm mad.. i get pissed of so dam easily nowadays.. little little stuff will make me piss off.. and i'm starting doubt if i can trust sumone.. i dunno y.. i wan to trust this person... but.. i dunno i'm scare i guess.. i trust wrong ppl too many times.. i dun wan to feel that pain again...
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10:31 PM
