Thursday, October 23, 2008
its been a wk since sch start.. i dunno y i just get more and more tired each day.. i spend the whole afternoon slpin ytd but still feel tired after i woke up... -.- well, the first week is not so bad ba.. as usual alot of physics.. and now even got sum chemistry.. i'm gonna die sia.. if u oe me well enough u should noe my physics and chem is all gone case one.. lol.. actually i dun think i have any sub which i'm good at also.. just that i'm tyco enough to pass all of them.. lol...well did have sum sad days last wk.. but cant rmb when.. just rmb have.. not a nice thing to rmb also.. hope i wun have to rmb sad things.. happy ones are enough..
i miss my parents.. i dunno y.. just sum random feeling i have every now and then.. would it be better if i was heartless?... i dunno.. maybe i wun feel so much then..
lookin at my parents mariage.. i'm scare.. wat if mine become like this also... omg.. then i dun wan to have children.. i dun wan them to go thru wat i've gone thru... its dam pain sia.. even until now.. this moment this second as i'm typin this.. and the pain of the tears wantin to come out but u cant seem to find sumone to lend u a shoulder is just makes me feel more terrible.. i cant imagine how much i'll cry when i finally find one.. i dunno how much i'm tryin to control and not let it out.. i'm almost reach the stage where i cannot hear any slow song.. any slow song will just make my tears come out..
and to make it worst, i have frens who suka suka tok to u suka suka give u face.. wth.. i dun understand y am i not heartless enough.. if i am then i wun hav to bother bout all this..
Wh3n WiLl yOu St0p Br3aKiNg My h3aRt?
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