Tuesday, September 23, 2008
sumtimes its real sad reading other ppl's blog.. well today i went to look thru one of my fren's blog... look thru the older post.. look thru the chat log... it kind of makes me sad.. cos it all makes it seems like i'm such a bad fren.. it makes me feel like i'm a bad person to make frens with.. the more i read and think of it.. the faster i think i will go back to how i use to be.. thats scary.. i made alot of effort to walk out of that fear and become more cheerful.. but all that has happen seems to be tellin me i should go back to how i use to be.. and i dunno how to tell this to anyone.. i dunno how to say it... i dunno how to explain y am i scare... i dunno how to explain y am i crying.. i dunno who to turn to if i wan to cry.. sumtimes i think maybe i shouldnt exist... =(and to sumone: if ur goal was to make me feel bad and make me think that i'm a bad fren.. u just did it... congrats... i feel like i'm a dam fren now..
updates of me... erm.. i finished readin the second bk(i mention the other time.. the name of the second bk is new moon) at 2.55am last nite.. lol.. or should be mornin.. haha.. will read the next one(eclipse) tmr maybe.. but first have to get it.. lol..
Wh3n WiLl yOu St0p Br3aKiNg My h3aRt?
10:55 PM
