Saturday, July 26, 2008
there's sumthing in my mind now... am i being too much of a busybody? i dun noe y i just keep thinking bout this... i'm trying to change sumthings but it doesn't seem to be working... i see no positive of it but just keep think bout wat negative things might happen if i continue to try to change it... am i doing the rite thing? i really dun noe... i nid help also... haiz... maybe its my fault... maybe its not... but if not then wat is it????? haiz... i'm afraid of wats going to happen next liao... its like going back to the past sumhow.... but will anyone understand if sumthing happens??? like last time where there will be at least 1 person who will understand, lend me a shoulder when i nid one... listen to me when i wan to nag... =( haiz...oh well... lets talk bout other things ba... today woke up kind of late but 5 mins only... lol... i reach sch early also... reach at bout 8.45am... slack at the seats at the pond there till 9 and decided to not go class on time and wait for luke cos he woke up late... lol... me, serene and ernest sat there chit chat and sing song until bout 9. 40?... lol... i can't rmb the time then jj, qinghui, larissa, hannah, lynette, sheena and soonheng came... then at bout nine forty sumthing then luke reach sch... funny sia... lol... see his expression... then everyone stood there thinking want to go for eltech tutorial mah... and in the end me, lynette, ernest, sheena and luke went for the tutorial only... the rest wen out of school... lol... while we were about to walk up... sheena say luke look like the dustbin... lol... funny sia... haha... his shirt colour look the same as the dustbin... haha... then went for tutorial and dunno do wat also... cos left such a short time also... then after that me, yeeteng, sheena, ernest, eric and luke decided not to go for EG1 so was thinking whether wan to go look for the rest who were not in sch mah... tuo tuo la la for bout half an hr then we decide to go to KFC and not look for them cos scare no time... lol... yee teng was quite angry... haha... sry... =) we to eat a family meal? lol... i can't rmb wats the name liao... haha... but we just bout sumthing and share among 5 ppl... cos eric didnt wan to eat... lol... then when we finish eating just nice the EG2 ppl came so we let them eat and left the place to go walk walk in the NTUC as we wait for them to come... lol... waste time thinging wat to buy for bout half an hr... -.- then when the EG2 pp finish eating we walk back to sch and went for compro lesson... haiz... watever la... then after compro is EG1 tutorial.. test! sure fail one lor... i dunno wat is it talking about also... and nv really bother to try also... sheena just listen to teacher teach 1 qns only and she can pass liao... she is seriously smart one lor... she can study andcatch things very fast... dun waste ur talent lei... lol... but as for ppl like me... i think i should die or sumthing... dun see any talent in me also... no motivation to study... i totally is like waiting to fail... actually i noe that i'm starting to feel scare liao... if not i wun go try to read the maths notes one... haiz... but cannot understand lei...
and my guardian seriously not very understanding one... even after getting a maid she still keep giving me stress... cant they give me more freedom... i really nid it... i rather stay in sch and study then cum home early lor... if i in sch at least when i dun noe can ask classmate... but if i at hm ask who sia... haiz... =(
more pics taken during MDA...
ernest, lynette, me and wenny... =) this is one of the nicest pic... haha...
back: ernest(san di), wenny(my daughter), luke(da ge) front: yeeteng(maria), me... lol... oh ya if u're wondering who is dustbin man... its luke... -.- haha...
lol...
haha... jailed for that moment... lol...
to outer space from class... haha
and we took a roller-coaster in class... lol... who would sleep while talking a roller-coaster sia... -.- other than that i love this pic...
oh ya and on wed i stayed back in sch till 9 with yee teng, lynette, soon heng and lynette... haha... i enjoy that day alot sia... haha... and when i realise all of us were wearing slippers and just nice got 5 ppl... i ask them take photo to make a star... lol...
oh well i guess thats all for now... maybe things will get better... haha... just nid to take sumtime i believe it will be fine... =)
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