Tuesday, May 27, 2008
i'm starting to think that i may not pass again... erm... maybe not starting only... that tot have been in my head since the first or second wk of sch... and this time its more convincing than the last time... coz examz will be next wk and until now i'm still lost in my own world... today i pass up my compro project.. after looking at my classmates one... i'm starting to wonder is mine too simple anot... haiz... i feel kind of down... dunno why... i really nid to talk to sum1... but i dun noe where to find that sumone...well... school is fun... haha... cos if i say i dun enjoy myself in sch... i'm sure the ppl who have talk to me bout it on the phone wun believe... haha... except that... it feels kind of weird recently... its almost the same as the first time i entered BPS... i'm worried and afraid... i'm worried that it may be the same and i'm afraid of going thru that process again... if it really does... i think i will go crazy and tell myself not to trust ppl anymore... its scary... i really hope wat i'm thinking about wun happen... i wonder wats wrong with me... i keep linking all the stuff happening in sch to BPS... and all r bad things... the happenings r about the same except this time diff ppl.. even i am different now... i seem to talk alot now and i dun noe if this is a good or bad thing... now i would sit there and talk and talk but last time... i would just sit there and sleep, even if i'm with my frens i sumtimes may just keep quiet... its such a big change... and i dun noe y...
sumtimes i wonder... y is my life like this... do i not deserve to lead a better life, with less worries, tears and have better friends... haiz...
Wh3n WiLl yOu St0p Br3aKiNg My h3aRt?
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