Tuesday, April 22, 2008
actually sumtimes i wonder if anyone reads my blog... i guess there should be 1 or 2 ppl ba... i also wonder wat is this blog for... why did i start this in the first place... seriously... until now i have no idea y... sumtimes its to vent my fustration... sumtimes its for happy stuff... haiz... i really dun noe... i want to cry but i can't... sumtimes i wish this blog could do stuff for me i cannot do... :'(Wh3n WiLl yOu St0p Br3aKiNg My h3aRt?
12:03 AM
Wednesday, April 16, 2008
14/4was the first day of sch... meet erza in the morning and then walk in to look for her first lesson blk with her... but i left b4 we even found it cos my class was starting and i need to look for it too... lol... it was weird when i first walk in to the class cos all new faces... but as the lesson got along, it was better... haha... first lesson was practical... after that we had a lesson with the rest of the AVT students and thru that class i got to know more students from my course who r in the other class...... lol... then break and the last was MDA... it was suppose to end at 5 but we end early cos all the teacher only ask us to read sum stuff on the net then come out with a quiz qns... then met a fren on a bus... chat thru out the journey and went home...
15/4
second day... and on tues i only start at 1... first was a thinking skill class... yi hui and i tot we are in the same class as.. but its not... we are going to different classes at different blks but only realise it a few mins b4 the thing start... we walk up and down looking for our blk... its so hard to find... when i finally found blk 50... i was very tired... when i enter the class, again all new faces... but made new frens when the lesson ended... this lesson ended early too but we had to go listen to a talk.. then after the talk we had to go look for our sports and wellness class... we were given a choice of 6 different sports to choose... and i choose tennis... and all we had to do was write down our names and stuff... then the teacher tell us where to go next wk and we can leave... lesson was suppose to end at 5 but when it ended it was only 4+... so i went to collect my ez link card with yi hui... i need that card badly to buy bus pass cos its simply too ex to pay for the bus fares everyday... lol...
16/4
which is today... today is slack day... nothing much only one lesson and then the next one cancelled cos of the FUN 2008... it was fun... but we were shouting like hell... it reminds me wat i have been doing in my sec sch... lol... i miss shouting like this... haha... at first we had to go to a place to learn a few cheer then had a short break and went to sports complex... at first was sitting in front with erza, fiona they all... but half way thru i went to the back to sit with the ppl from hotstuff... sitting at the back u really cannot hear wat the SLs are saying at all in front so they decided to move to the front and sit at the steps... haha... its really very fun being with the ppl from hotstuff cos they r different from any other camp gps i have been in b4... haha... and in the end the EE division won best mascot for FUN 2008... well i got this info from erza's blog... cos i only know we won sumthing but not sure wat is it... lol... when ppl from EE heard that we won... everyone was s happy... lol... that alot of ppl ran to the front to take photo... then after that they even carry the trophy and ran... lol... but i didn't do that... i only did the first thing... haha... then time for photo taking... everyone tried to get in front cos they wanted to be seen in the picture... that it was very hot... and it was hard to balance also... cos everyone was pushing each other to get in to the pic... after taking the picture we went back to get our bags... and i headed home... it was a long bus ride... and i fell asleep in it... lol...
well i guess tats all for now...
Wh3n WiLl yOu St0p Br3aKiNg My h3aRt?
10:16 PM
Tuesday, April 15, 2008
i really feel so sad... i have this stress on me... i want to cry but the tears just wun come out rite...its not that i had stress from my studies but its from my family... i dun understand if this is rite anot... i have to think of stuff others my age dun have to... i keep telling myself it nothing but its really not like that... i'm going crazy already... i want to let it out but i can't bring myself to tell anyone... i really dun noe wat to do anymore... i want to cry... but really can't lei... tears will always just fill my eyes when i think about it.. but dun come out... i'm looking forward to the day i let it out... so if u really see me cry one day... dun ask... just give me a hug or smile and let me finish crying... :'(Wh3n WiLl yOu St0p Br3aKiNg My h3aRt?
10:15 PM
Sunday, April 13, 2008
at first u tot it was all going well and so u r happy... then suddenly u start to see things which is totally different from wat u think... so u start to think and only negative tots appear... well tats how i feel now... its a feeling that i'm afraid of, but will always comes to me... it freaks me out and makes me cry... i want to tell sumone... but dun know how... its not a big deal but as i see more, more negative tots appear... and all i will be is more and more sad... unless i forget all this... which will take days and days... i'm just afraid... how... i'm so lost now... i cannot turn back of go forward anymore... :'(Wh3n WiLl yOu St0p Br3aKiNg My h3aRt?
11:55 PM
Friday, April 11, 2008
i didn't talk much bout how my EE FOC camp was in my previous post... but i really dunno how to type it out... coz i've got too much to say... when i try to wrote it out it was 4 pages long in my diary... haha... so since a picture can speak a thousand words... then i'll let it do the talking for me... ;)
Wh3n WiLl yOu St0p Br3aKiNg My h3aRt?
11:06 PM
Wednesday, April 09, 2008
just came back from EE FOC camp held at NP... i'm so so tired... i think 2 nites plus together i also nv sleep for more than 4 hrs... normally i sleep bout 10 hrs a day one lei... my eyes feel like closing now... lol...for a person who doesn't really enjoy going for camp... i must say that camp was actually quite fun... my gp members and the SLs were super friendly... but my legs r aching now... and my right shouder also, cos i lie on it and sleep during the pass 2 nites... erm... actually my brain is quite blank now... i dun noe wat to say already... so i'll end here and continue in my own diary... lol... if u want to know the details ask me when u see that i look awake... :) and if u can't understand this entry then ask me personally if u want to know... cos i'm not really sure wat i'm typing also...
Wh3n WiLl yOu St0p Br3aKiNg My h3aRt?
7:30 PM
Saturday, April 05, 2008
today is a really tired day... at first at bout 10 plus this morning... i recieve a call that i hav been waiting for a few day... the caller say that my laptop was here and i could go and collect it today or on monday... but monday is orientation so i'm left with today cos wkends they nv open... sian... so from my hse i had to rush to toa payoh to get it by 1 cos by that time it will be their lunch time... after getting it, i had to carry it and rush to jurong to get sum medicine cos it will close at 4.30 and not open tonite...after getting the medicine i then went to outrium park then redhill then chinatown and then finally home... that means i was carrying it fromtoa payoh -> jurong -> outrium park -> redhill -> chinatown... was really tired when i reach home... hand pain and leg pain... and becos of all this i miss the chance of going to my fren's bbq party... lol...
Wh3n WiLl yOu St0p Br3aKiNg My h3aRt?
12:17 AM
