Tuesday, December 01, 2009
haven't blogged for a while.. basically cos idk what to blog about.. well not really.. but i just dun wan the everyone to see certain things i say in my head.. i blogged abit on it in LiveJournal.. but i locked it.. so only frens can see.. haha.. wanted to type more there but i always dunno what to type when i start to type.. lol..all i can say now is that
i feel that i'm not a good person :(
or maybe
i nv been good before..
dam it.. i'm trying very hard to be positive and i end up typing that.. not in a positive mood now ba.. i always say i wan to give up and end up changing my mind after i finish blogging =.=" which just makes me feel like............... i'm an idiot..
sumtimesujustsaystuffthatotherpeoplehearalreadywillbe :(
example:me,whichiknowyouduncare..... :(
Wh3n WiLl yOu St0p Br3aKiNg My h3aRt?
10:56 AM
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
hi everyone!this is sheena.
I would very much like to blog an entire post based on the pacific ocean but i know priest would kill me.
so too bad, everyone please go read up yourself. xD
wenny's tag made me laugh so hard in the middle of class.
...i don't even know what class i'm in now.
strange.
-_-
wenny you playing too much of fishing legend ler.
everytime talk about fish.
I need 3 giant crabs and 3 giant octupus!!!
stuck at this 2 mission.
kns.
BYE~
Wh3n WiLl yOu St0p Br3aKiNg My h3aRt?
1:31 PM
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
y izzit that the good times nv last.. and the bad times keep dragging on and on..wei she me shen wo you bu yao guan wo.. wo yi zhe pa ni men dan xin, jie guo she me dou bu shou.. shi bu shi ying wei zhe yang zhao chen le xian zai de wo... wo shi bu shi you zhou cuo le... wo zhen de bu zhi dao..
idk wat is wrong or rite anymore.. sumtimes i feel that everything i do is wrong.. have i ever done anything rite??? idk..
wat if i forget how to smile anymore 1 day..
wat else will there be left in me......
:'( :'( :'( :'(
i'm tired.. sumtimes i think the only way is giving up.. but i noe thats not wat i wan to do... i wan to do so much more.. but yet............
wat izzit that i really need.. idk either.. console? a person to talk to? to cry? i really dunno..
i'm really really scare.. but i'm not sure wat is the specific(pacific) thing i'm afraid of.. myself? them? i noe i'm afrid of pain.. i'm afraid of the pain i feel in my heart.. i'm afraid it'll keep coming back.. i'm afraid it wun go off..
sumtimes i wan so much to talk to sumone bout how i feel but yet i can nv put wat i wan to say tgt.. i guess i'm just not good with words.. i nv noe how to express myself in words.. so i only can cry... but sumtimes even so i still smile and laugh as usual.. i'm tired.. idk wat to do anymore..
its so tiring to smile when u wan to cry :(
Wh3n WiLl yOu St0p Br3aKiNg My h3aRt?
10:36 PM
Saturday, October 17, 2009
times flies~just finish my 1 month attachment ytd.. suppose to be till 18 but the last 2 days is off days for me.. i miss them :( they are all so nice :) all of them were so willing to teach.. i learn alot there.. i'm so happy i did this 1 month attachment though it has burn a big hole in my wallet.. lol.. if i could i would have went to thank everyone of them myself.. :)
well i guess thats all for now.. lazy to blog liao.. lol..
Wh3n WiLl yOu St0p Br3aKiNg My h3aRt?
9:22 PM
Saturday, August 08, 2009
today's my bd :).. or should say ytd.. cos its 57 mins pass 12 so its 8/8 liao.. haha..had lots to test this week... so many until i also sian.. lazy to blog also.. so will just post pics here.. and just write a few word..
most impt thing that i must write today is to thank everyone who wished me happy birthday :) you people are the reason y my life is beautiful.. :)
my classmates bought me chocolate cake!! :) i super love it.. tks :) they celebrated my bd after our dsp prac test... was super weird when i walk to the studio la.. lol.. er zi keep blocking me and ask me to talk on the phone.. lol.. then finally i he let me walk to the studio and they walk out with a bd cake and sing bd song for me.. lol.. then after that went for lunch then went to meet eliza.. and she bought me another cake.. lol..
this is my present from yeeteng(maria), sheena(mummy), kt, serene, jj, wenny, larissa and hannah.. super nice.. i love it :) TKS :D (and if u shared in paying this present but ur name is not here, let me noe kkk :) cos i'm not very sure who are the ppl who bought this present for me :D:D )
i'm so in love with this earpiece now.. i'm going to try to let it live as long as possible.. lol..
this is from ernest.. cute.. haha..
went to marina square after sch with hannah and luke(kt).. went to Starbucks with hannah first while waiting for kt.. then when he ccame back from his lesson we went to eat kolo mee.. lol.. [hannah treated me.. tks :)] laugh like mad there.. dam high there.. lol.. then after a while hannah left, then me and kt went to starbucks to slack then went hm..
and i found a button with a funny name in the toilet.. lol so i took a pic of it.. its call the...
and below are picture taken when we went for sum fair at suntec..
a grp pic..
another grp pic..
blue black blue black..
i love this pic best.. :)
b4 i go... i must once again thank everyone who wished me happy birthday today :D
thank yeeteng, sheena, luke, larissa, hannah, serene, jiajun and wenny who bought me a earpiece :D and thank ernest for his present... AND thank kantang and hannah for pei-ing me for dinner at marina sq :D
loveyappl :) tks for making my bd special.. :D
well i'll end here.. dam tired.. lol..
Wh3n WiLl yOu St0p Br3aKiNg My h3aRt?
12:57 AM
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
lazy to blog.. but will paste sumthing i read from Jason mraz's blog...this is the post whereby he ans qns ask from his fans.. and i particular like this ans... so below is wat that person asked and how he replied.
"
From lindsaygee: I am 28. hard age. what worries you the most about your own life; not the world; not the environment. what keeps you up @ night.
I often ask myself: Am I doing enough? What contributions have I made today? If my list is short I will get out of bed and start typing something - often a letter or a journal entry, as if my own journal will someday amount to something (which it usually does, allowing me sort out the garbage from the recycling in my head.) Otherwise, I waste little energy on worry. What’s there to be anxious about? Missing a flight or not making a phone payment can be an inconvenience, just as someone you know getting sick or even dying can be very unfortunate. But Worry is what happens when you take those misfortunes on and think you have control over them. You tell yourself that you are responsible in some way for these situations. Or worse, you’ve decided if the outcome isn’t pleasant, there could be even more trouble for yourself and others.
Worry is a story you tell yourself and nothing more. Sometimes we do it to over-express our care in a matter. Other times we’re looking for sympathy. We’ll even go so far as to tell all about our worries in hopes that someone else will share the responsibility with us. There are plenty of reasons we create for Worry to creep its little head in.
But the real fact is, you are responsible for nothing to begin with.
Let’s say you send some love to someone, but they don’t reciprocate the way you expected. That’s nothing to worry about. It doesn’t mean they don’t love you. Besides, if they don’t, why worry about that? If that mattered, you’d be creating that as a condition for having love in your life. Unconditional love is what we practiced when we came into this world in the first place – so it’s best we get back to being that.
Our economy-based society doesn’t make it easy for us to live worry-free lives. Somewhere between the ages of 6 and 16 we pick up all kinds of story and baggage that sit with us our whole lives. Is my job a cool job? Are my clothes cool or appropriate for this place? Do I read the right books? Do I hang with the right crowd? Whatever the answer, it’s just one interpretation of how you THINK life should be. There’s nothing in this Universe that can support the way something SHOULD be other than the honesty and your joyous reaction to it being whole.
Life itself is empty and meaningless. Truly. It’s you who give meaning to something. The world you see before you is entirely defined by your interpretation of it. Otherwise, life just is.
Some people don’t care for sports. They see the game as meaningless. Others see it as the most important activity on the planet. Some people really love fancy cars while others can go their whole lives not caring what kind of box they’re transported around in. You see what I’m saying? Go easy on yourself. Love yourself at 28. Tell the world that it is a peaceful and playful age, not a hard one, and watch it transform around you.
You’ve asked a very serious question and hopefully this brief answer shines some light on the power you have to create endless, beautiful possibility for yourself. Nothing is wrong in your world unless you tell yourself it is wrong. There are no wrong questions. There are no wrong answers.
There is only Love. Everything else is our resistance to it. -Terces Englehart
Namaste
"
well.. thats it.. to read other stuff he wrote or qns he ans go to
http://freshnessfactorfivethousand.blogspot.com/
all credits go to the blog mentioned above..
and i didnt highlight certain parts to decorate my post.. i just found them meaningful and hope ppl who are reading them now will pay more attention to them.
will blog bout myself soon..
my current aim -----------> to be happy :)
cheers :)
Wh3n WiLl yOu St0p Br3aKiNg My h3aRt?
9:36 AM
Saturday, July 11, 2009
had another crying evening.. haiz.. i wonder when will this ever end..just went thru my mails.. and i saw a mail that is about how thankful a person is for everything.. and i smiled.. cos i have many things that i can be thankful for too.. :)
For the very start, i'm thankful that i can cry, cos that means i'm not heartless..
as for the rest.. perhaps i'll write them when i happen to blog bout them :)
and today i found a nice quote,
"Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take but by the moments that take our breath away" (author unknown)
well i guess i'll end here today.. cant think of anymore happy stuff to blog about..
Wh3n WiLl yOu St0p Br3aKiNg My h3aRt?
11:29 PM
